UNSOLICITED ADVICE

You need to get out of your rut. You need to put on your big girl panties and face the world. Stop being so dramatic. It's only anxiety. Just do it. Stop wasting your life. You are totally fine.  How many times have you heard those lovely words directed at you? Too many to count I assume! I have heard some of these recently and yes they hurt to the deep pits of my soul. They also make me mad as hell. Why is it that people assume when you have anxiety it is just in your imagination? Do they not realise how much I wish it was just a phase, a figment of my imagination , hell a fad? I would love to not have to fight the beast every day. To not have to physically and emotionally push  myself daily to just walk out the door would be a rare day. I cannot comprehend how people feel the need to belittle someone they care about it. I have been hurt far too many times from all those words. I know they say stick and stones, blah blah ...bullshit ...blah, but words do cut down to your soul.  I will say that being told to get "out of my rut", lit a fire in me, mostly from the anger those words formed. I have since deleted the speaker of those words, rather they deleted me. Tomato..tomatoe!  I have done more with my time in the last few weeks then I have in a while. I have checked a lot off my to do list and have felt great about life. I have been happy, an odd feeling of excitement  as I look into the future has bubbled up in me too. I have pushed myself through two really hot days, as heat is a major trigger for my anxiety. I am getting into a healthier lifestyle with eating better and exercising, something I hate to do. I am being more social. Is this all from the result of unsolicited advice that I received? Is this from shedding a negative force in my life? Is this finally putting my time into myself instead of the preacher of those words? Perhaps a mix of everything. ​